Throughout my life, you’ve tried to lure me in every possible way. You were never satisfied with your mere presence in my life, you desired more. Your masculine figure, your sleek and shiny body, your rapid fast dances, your groovy moves, they were hard to resist I admit. But I always believed that love comes from deep within, when there is chemistry, when you love unconditionally. When you talk like there is no tomorrow, when you laugh together for no reason, when an eye-contact speaks a million words, when a touch is all that it takes. I searched for exactly that within me, sorry… there was none! There was no spark, there was no love.
It was only a one-sided love and I was never a fan of emotional trauma. I did not want you to love me in vain, I made it clear from day one that you should find someone who speaks your language, I certainly don’t. But to you, love was blind.. you translated my facial grimaces and my twitchy moves as dances that quench your thirst of me.
Yes I was once a single lady looking for love, but I am married now and to the love of my life, my soul-mate. You don’t seem to comprehend that. Even in the presence of my husband you don’t seem to care. You follow me day in, day out.. You stalk me. Leave me alone, will you?
Today I have the courage to tell you that you’ve pursued your dream and you’ve highly succeeded. I certainly don’t love you but you’ve managed to install your presence in my life. You’re locked within me… I see your shadow when you’re not actually there. My life now seems to be revolved around you and only you!
But……
……….Only now, when I need you most, you’ve disappeared to no existence. I look left and right, up and down looking for you but to no avail. You’re gone…. You’re gone when I finally have the courage to confront you, I, and after many years of extreme emotional torture, have the tool to make you see, sense, hear, smell and slowly die from Pif-Paf you little cockroach 🙂
This speech is dedicated to all cockroaches on this planet who intentionally frighten the ladies of our nation! Cockroaches, I will whisper in your ear for the very last time: change has finally come because us Ladies of this era are no longer threatened by your existence, WE SPRAY…..YOU DIE!
My reservoir of thoughts 
um3azzan said,
May 13, 2009 at 1:04 pm
OH MY GOD! I think in the post you spoke about every girl in this world .. well at least the middle eastern ones, coz my strong housekeeper .. would bring a tissue paper and hold the cockrach in it like its nothing but dirt .. what a strong woman she is!!
Shahrazad said,
May 14, 2009 at 10:29 am
Yah, I don’t know what’s wrong with us Middle Eastern Ladies…cockroaches, dogs, lizards…sometimes cats! Where is our Woman Power, we need to bring it back 😀
Um Haitham said,
May 13, 2009 at 1:49 pm
indeed um Azzan , The writter made a huge step on writting these words & i encourage her
Shahrazad said,
May 14, 2009 at 10:26 am
Thanks for passing by Um Haitham….make it a habit 🙂
حمد العزري said,
May 14, 2009 at 3:54 am
LOL! You’re life now seems to be revolved around the hard to resist cockroach with masculine figure and sleek body?!!!!
You’ve successfully took the readers to dreamland and then suddenly threw them in front of …. Well, the hard to resist sleek creature 🙂
Shahrazad said,
May 14, 2009 at 10:26 am
LOL… I bet you thought your message did not get across and I still wasn’t really sure what “blogging” is all about when you 1st read the post 😛
My life really is revolved around that little creature now, it sends shots of electricity when I see him, I jump up and down and shout “ISSAAAAAM 9ar9ooooooooooor”
Well, Issam promised I’ll never see that masculine sleek body again and we’ve got Pif-Paf handy just incase he again disrespects my husband’s presence 😉
Rayyan said,
May 14, 2009 at 5:08 am
Do you still see cockroaches now a days? min zamaaaaaaaaaan I didn’t see one!
well sometimes I see the small brown tiny ones but not the old days ones the Black “masculine figure with sleek and shiny body” LOL!
Shahrazad said,
May 14, 2009 at 10:19 am
Rayyan… I didn’t see them for a very long time, but it is summer again so now they’re back in the game and their shiny bodies scare the hell out of me
Your dear Husband said,
May 14, 2009 at 11:05 am
Gosh Ibti, you make it sound like our house is full of Cockroaches and that I have nothing better to do but to chase them (bad impression but maybe it will deter some unwanted guests 😛 )
Soulmate said,
May 19, 2009 at 4:29 pm
Issam, that’s exactly what was runing through my mind 😛